Right now in this moment he felt more pain then Jasper had ever made him feel. He had been so certain. So confident. He was the one. Ashley was ready to do something he never thought he would do again. And then Armarus found way to ruin it, to take it from them both. He hurt because he thought Ganymede was in the same place he was, which was his own fault for making assumptions. Ashley had let Jasper go. There were things that hurt, sure. But not to this degree. He knew they would get there but Ganymede needed more time.

"I love you." He said softly. "You're mine. I'm yours. But you're not ready."

Fucking hell, he could just throw himself off a bridge right now.

"I'm going to go," He took a deep breath. "Up to my room, okay? And lay down. I want to lay under my stars and just chill for a minute." Another breath and he looked at Ganymede. "I'm not leaving. I love you."

But he needed a minute to clear his head. And fuck, he needed a puppy to cuddle. Ash paused and kissed his love deeply. "I love you." He says again.

Then he kicks off his shoes and wanders off to find Felix and go cuddle him under the twinkling lights in his room.